7 Sept 2012

Feeling Like a Rag doll


¡Hola!

My parents went to the countryside, and left me home alone in civilization. Poor me. Tomorrow I will go and watch Magic Mike with my cousin.  (Whoops, I´m such a badass for breaking my first blog-rule) I have no idea what the movie is about, only knowing that Channing Tatum is shirtless is enough.

Today I borrowed 5 novels that I will probably not read, sadly because of my laziness. The reason to my library visit was my little life crisis. I´m kind of disappointed in myself. Irritated by the fact that I never put my heart into any schoolwork and I always begin working on a project in the very last minute. Okay, so I have been told that school shouldn’t be your whole life, well I have taken that part a bit too serious. It´s not that I get bad grades; on paper everything actually looks great.  But then again I have never been a number obsessed person; my own judgment of how good I really did is what matters. If my instinct tells me that I have no idea about the facts in a subject, I really don´t handle the subject, I just have the ability to trick the teachers with my stories.

 Ignoring my math skills, I usually do well in tests.  I´m still chill with failed accomplishments, but doing a plain performance is what bothers me. Feeling average is I guess the worst feeling; I rather want to suck than be bland. I´m a bit ashamed to say this, but to be honest, I´m jealous of those people who are geeks and ready to study like hell. I´m quite sure, that my attitude will get in the way of reaching my dreams, that aren´t even clear for me yet. The cream of smartasses is noticed and so are the stupid assholes, but what about us normal[1] and lame creeps?

 
Fuck this angst, and let´s listen to this awesome piece of music!


 




[1] normal is not a word to be used in description of me

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